Daily Outfits

First up is my roller derby outfit! New Zealand had its first intercity bout on Saturday and it was with our 2 most rival cities – Auckland and Wellington. The extra few years practice Auckland has on us were very evident as they whooped our ass 174 to 88! Not once did the crowd become discouraged though, we screamed our lungs out in support till the very end. It was SO great.

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Welly’s colours are orange and purple so I wore every piece of orange clothing I own – a tie that came free with a shirt, a corduroy skirt from when I was at high school, and socks. I made my bow at Jo’s fascinator/banner making session the day before, it’s stuffed with paper, that’s how I roll.

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I totally guessed how to tie my tie and got it right first time! Stoked.

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My usual staples – a tee, skirt, sneakers. But this time it’s minus the leggings! Behold the glorious whiteness of my legs.
The grin is courtesy of free rum cocktails.
If you look closely you should be able to see that my t shirt features a punk version of Bambi. She’s very cool.

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More Shit I Want

I’m not sure if it’s this time of year or the fact that I generally like to have things but after my last wishlist post I was inspired to start noting down the things I’m lusting after.

Here a few more things I’d love to have to would also make excellent gifts for the left of centre girls in your life.

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  1. Anything from Trixie Delicious – This clever lady make me want to collect plates and tea cups so bad. So far I’ve only managed to score one of her badges emblazoned with flowers and the word Creep, but I’d really love some of her plates hanging in my house, the cruder the better.
    I wish I had a close gay friend so I could buy him the Gaybo plate!
  2. A watch – I’ve been trying to find one I want for ages, but these styles all seem quite cool.
    Bright pink from The Warehouse
    Black Plasteramic from ToyWatch

    http://toywatchusa.com/Plasteramic-Watch-Collection-Black/M/B001KQ7YE8.htm

  3. Keep Calm posters – The Boys work has a nice printer so he might be able to do these for me ;]
    Bright solid colours please, no pastels, and definitely no orange.
    Get Excited and Make Things – download
    Keep Calm and Conjure a Patronus Charm (because I’m on a massive Harry Potter kick right now) from 3 Lambs Graphics
  4. Thrifted frames – Sure new frames are nice, but they’re expensive, and you can’t spray paint them without feeling guilty.
    I’d like to fill one of our walls with framed prints (like the posters above) big ones, little ones, whatever. So if you come across any cheap ones snap them up for me!
  5. 0g earrings – Because the holes in my lobes are 8mm wide I usually just leave my trusty plugs in but it would be nice to change it up every now and then. These earrings are so pretty!
    Horn Hearts from Bodyartforms
    Single flare light blue pyrex plug from Bodyartforms
  6. Feltidermy – Like taxidermy but with felt animals (even though The Boy feels really bad seeing soft toy heads on the wall. He said “what if that was Little Ted’s head on a plaque”. He’s a big softy!)
    Bunny and jackalope from Girl Savage on Etsy
  7. Books – With a particular focus on Harry Potter. While I’ve read all of the books in the series at least twice I only own books 6 and 7. Adding hard cover copies of books 1-5 would be awesome.
  8. VouchersReading cinemas movie vouchers, New World vouchers, and cleaning vouchers. To entertain us, feed us, and make us look like we’re less gross than we really are.
  9. Geek prideKeep out of direct sunlight. Nuff said.

My often updated wish lists can always be found on Amazon and Etsy.

The 24th Year

Last year I was sick on my birthday. My best friend was also out of town, and I chose a tiramasu with far too much alcohol in it for desert.
A sucky birthday certainly wasn’t a taste of things to come though.

I’ve achieved so much this year. I grew this little blog into something I really love and found so many new friends while doing it. I finally decided what I want to do in my life (for the moment anyway), and I think that decision will mean working for myself or at least in a job I really love for the rest of my life.

I really started discovering who I am, where my lines in the sand are, what I’m ready to go into battle for. Recently I even started learning to embrace my figure and stop worrying about fitting into my old jeans. (thanks Natalie and Frances!)

This year has been great for socialising. The group of friends we had when we first moved to Wellington is back with us in a big way and intelligent discussion abounds amongst the drunken antics. I really love all the people I surround myself with.

The Boy has been amazing. Extremely supportive and encouraging. There is no way I could do this without him, and not just because of his Freehand skills and the fact he’s paying my bills.

It’s when he pulls out things like this that I really know he’s paying attention.

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Last years present is on the wall behind The Boy.

That’s the wrapping paper for this years as yet unknown present. Present tally so far includes a lovely soft hand knit scarf, chocolates, a marshmallow bear lollipop, a funky candle, and a 2010 cupcakes diary. The Boy also went out in the pouring rain to get me some muffins, cheese, and bread so I have something nice to eat for breakfast and lunch.

Thanks for all your support and for making this year great!

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Also – My ghosty necklace is in Etsy’s current voter honouring halloween items! Yay. It can’t really compete with the more expensive and amazing items though. If you’ve got an Etsy account and haven’t voted yet it would be a great birthday present if wee ghosty got a bit of love. And if you don’t have an Etsy account why not?!

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No one can drag me away from cake!

I Do My Best

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That’s all for today folks. I’m tired because I actually left the house today. And I left before midday. And then I assembled a whole bunch of necklaces and brooches while making plans to go to the Roller Derby and attend a Spice World party. MLIA.

30 Things About My Invisible Illness You May Not Know

30 Things About My Invisible Illness You May Not Know

This week is National Invisible Chronic Illness Awareness Week in America. A fact I was made aware of through Natalie’s post of the same name. Go read it first, this one can wait. Natalie has some great things to say particularly about suffering from type 1 diabetes.

To get the word out about National Invisible Chronic Illness Awareness Week the organisers started a meme to help the “invisible” sufferers have a moan share more about what they’re going through.

  1. The illness I live with is: Indeterminate colitis. A lovely combo of ulcerative colitis and Crohn’s disease.
  2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: 2003 (January)
  3. But I had symptoms since: 2002 at least 6-12 months before being diagnosed.
  4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: Acknowledging that I’m sick, and that sometimes that means I’ll be in pain. And sometimes I’ll be debilitated, and that’s life now and I don’t have to pretend I’m ok when I’m not.

    Trying to remember to take my pills every day and get blood tests monthly.

    Never knowing whether I feel sick or tired because of the disease or because I have food poisoning, or ate a shitty diet that week. Whether I’m hungover or my gut is packing a sad because I had both alcohol and coke. And not knowing what it would be like to not be sick, am I really having a good week or is it just good compared to my bad weeks?

  5. Most people assume: That I have constant diarrhoea.
  6. The hardest part about mornings are: Going to bed before the sun rises.
  7. My favourite medical TV show is: House – cynicism, atheism, sarcasm, awesomism.
  8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: My computer? Medical wise…blood tests and colonoscopes.
  9. The hardest part about nights are: Remembering to take my pills.
  10. Each day I take 7 pills.
  11. Regarding alternative treatments I: Have tried a few things that didn’t work. Inflammatory bowel disease (IBD) is different for everyone, something that may work for one person might not work for another. I’m fairly skeptical about alternative treatments, especially in regards to chronic illness.
  12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: Invisible. I like to pretend there is nothing wrong with me.
  13. Regarding working and career: I would find it extremely hard to work in retail as I get a sore back after standing for an hour and I often need to take bathroom breaks on short notice. Bowel disease will not wait for scheduled break times.
  14. People would be surprised to know: That people died regularly from having an IBD as recent as 50 years ago. Despite the many negative side effects steroids have saved so many people from having to get their bowels removed.

    That I probably had been very very sick for almost a year before being diagnosed and only went to the doctor about it when it became really bad (and he had absolutely no clue as to what it could be). At 16 I was clueless and had absolutely no idea that it wasn’t normal to go to the toilet so often, to have diarrhoea, and to be in occasional pain.

  15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: Knowing that there is no known cause or cure and I’m more likely to get cancer than most people.
  16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: Go camping. But only because a portaloo was on site.
  17. The commercials about my illness: Are non existent. Most people have no idea what I’m talking about when I say ‘Crohn’s disease’, ‘ulcerative colitis’ or ‘indeterminate colitis’.
  18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: I was only 17 when I was diagnosed so I don’t really remember what life was like before colitis.
  19. It was really hard to have to give up: Caffeine and ice cream. I still have them occasionally and I really pay for it.
  20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: Blogging.
  21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: Get hyper on V (energy drink), stuff my face with popcorn, eat a tub of ice cream, and not feel sick afterwards.
  22. My illness has taught me: Finding a great doctor is a precious gift. Medicine is one of the greatest things in the world. Despite the long waits public health care is lifesaving and something every country should have. Getting blood tests isn’t scary. Taking pills isn’t hard (before this I couldn’t even swallow pain relief tablets, I had to learn quickly!). The Boy must have really really liked me (or was too lazy to do anything about it) to stick around when I got so sick at the very start of our relationship.
  23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is: I hate hate hate seeing the signs in food places, swimming pools, doctors waiting rooms etc that say you can’t help prepare, can’t swim, must tell reception etc, If you’ve had diarrhoea in the last week (or however long). I know it’s the easiest way to express the concern but IBD is not an infectious disease so those signs don’t apply to everyone who has diarrhoea. IBD is an inflammatory disease, in laymans terms my bowel has a hyper immune system and thinks all bacteria is bad and attacks everything and gets inflamed. I take inflammation medication and immunosuppressants to suppress my immune system.It’s also annoying when people link my choice to be pescetarian to the disease, and when people offer me gluten free food because I tried a gluten free diet 6 years ago for a few months.
  24. But I love it when people: Treat me like I’m normal, and understand that I’m managing ok with medication most of the time.
  25. My favourite motto or quote that gets me through tough times is: I just try to remember that about 50 years ago IBD was often a death sentence. We have made amazing progress with medication and hopefully it’ll get even better.
  26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them: Now you know, and now you can manage it so it should get easier from here. I haven’t met anyone that has just been diagnosed, but I would be more than happy to talk with them about it and offer any support I can. And I’d recommend they shop around till they find a doctor they really click with. Mine is fantastic and it has made the whole horrible experience much much easier!
  27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: The way it has integrated itself into life and is just a normality now.
  28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was: I was in the process of moving cities with The Boy (who I hadn’t been with very long) and we were staying at his house for a few days, half way to the new city, while preparing to move. I hadn’t yet been diagnosed but my symptoms got so bad that I couldn’t absorb my food, it was immediately coming out both ends. The Boys mum works as a nurse and could see the amount of pain I was in (what with me writing around on the floor clutching my gut and all) and that I needed to go to the hospital, she took me in the middle of the night, and waited with me for hours until I was seen. She waited with me while I was admitted, and looked after me while I was in the hospital by myself. The Boy had to go to our new city to look for somewhere for us to live so his mum was the only person I knew. And I didn’t really know her at all.
    It meant a lot to both me and my mum who couldn’t be there as she was a 5 hour drive away looking after my siblings.
  29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: I’m sick too dammit.
  30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: Happy that you cared enough.

Now go hug all your sick friends and let them know you admire them for getting on with life.

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Copied directly from Definatalie.com because I feel exactly the same way and can’t put it better myself.

Disclaimer of sorts: This awareness week was started by a Christian ministry, and while I am an atheist I think it’s important to make people aware of chronic invisible illnesses. I also think it’s important to treat them with medical science, not just prayer – like in the case of the diabetic 11 year old who died because her Christian parents refused her medical treatment, preferring to pray for her healing rather than providing her treatment.
/controversy

- Natalie

Hier Und Jetzt – 30 August 2009

I don’t know how The Boy can live with me sometimes. I didn’t have a shower for three days in a row this week. A total of three power company reps and one courier guy saw me in my fluffy pink robe and ugg boots as I tried to hide behind my door and failed.

Watched this week: Entourage Season 5 – Now, The King of Kong, Inglourious Basterds, The Hangover (disappointing), The Boat That Rocked (we both laughed and cried).

On my wishlist: Pencil skirts. After putting on another all black ensemble yesterday I realised I looked a bit boxy and decided I’m going to try to work some more colour into my wardrobe. I doubt I’ll be leaving the black t shirts behind me anytime soon but a few bright pencil skirts could be just what I need to show that I do actually have a waist and that having an ass and thighs ain’t all bad!

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I’m loving: Seeing a guy at the bus stop wearing nothing but his underwear and a t shirt, presumably doing the pantless walk of shame; 60s music; Bill Nighy; “You look like a unicorn… in a negligee”; The crazy cat from downstairs. It started a while back when a new person moved in downstairs, suddenly there was this huge fluffy cat that was really really friendly and would rub all over you while you went to check the mail. About a week ago I was petting it and as I went back up the stairs to our flat it kept jumping in front of me trying to block my way. Then it found it’s way into our house when we had the door open. We were happy to have it wonder around but it seems that one invite was enough for it to take over. We haven’t even fed the cat before but now it scratches at our door to be let in. The other night it scratched at the door for an hour while we sat inside feeling bad for not letting it in but still wanting it to learn that it does not in fact live here.

Downstairs Kitty

We don’t know it’s name, or even what sex it is, so we just call it downstairs kitty…because it lives downstairs.

Best line: [After seeing a cat squish itself under a fence] “Maybe it was bred with an octopus. Hahaha Octo-PUS.” – The Boy

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I’ve now been awarded the Kreativ Blogger award by two lovely blogger ladies (thank you very much Ela and Charlie :]) so I suppose it’s time for me to follow the rules once again. The rules dictate that I must share seven things about myself that people might find interesting. And we all know how a personal blogger loves the limelight so I’m happy to oblige. It may be hard to come up with seven things I haven’t over shared already though…

  1. I believe I have the band My Chemical Romance to thank/blame for my obsession with the internet. It started with me seeing one of their videos on TV, then I got into their music in a big way, so I joined the MCRmy street team, started spending all my spare time online, got a MySpace, started to blog on it, started reading other blogs, etc.
  2. I didn’t start wearing glasses till I was 20. In previous years I had often exclaimed at how perfect my vision was. :[
  3. I take 6 prescription pills daily.
  4. I am the eldest of 5 children, my youngest brother is 18 years younger than me.
  5. I am afraid of flying, but only when I’m already in the air.
  6. I didn’t finish high school, I didn’t even finish the second to last year. I left for a 6 month computing course when I was 16, and there is nothing I would change about that decision!
  7. I am a pescetarian (the only meat I eat comes from the sea). The only other meat I crave is the crappy stuff in pies and burgers.

Hier Und Jetzt – 23 August 2009

Listening to: Faith No More; N.E.D.

Watched this week: Entourage Season 3 and 4, Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.

On my wishlist: More coasters for our new coffee table, we made one, and it took 20 minutes to cut so a redesign is in order. The Florentine pattern matches our glasses and cups. :D

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I’m loving: Brand new babies (Congrats Shonali and Graham, he’s gorgeous!), indulging all the time, TV on the internet, emails from readers, a rush of sales after a quiet week, splurging on food.

Favourite photo: There are a lot of hot black cars on the shows I’ve been watching. I can’t drive, and prefer a wussy engine when I’m in a car, but I have an undying love for beautiful black cars.
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I was tagged by Sarah Hannah of Death Wears Diamond Jewellery to answer a few little questions for y’all…

  • What is your current obsession?
    TV shows! I’m watching Entourage, True Blood, and Burn Notice, and patiently awaiting the return of Gossip Girl.
  • What is your horoscope and do you relate?
    I’m a Libran and I while have many of the “Libran traits” I don’t believe in that stuff anymore.
  • What are you wearing today?
    After I changing out of my fluro pink satin PJ bottoms and my WordCamp grey long sleeved tee (that I wore until after 5) I got into grey wide legged pants, a black unicorn t shirt, and a black Misery hoody.
  • What is the last thing you bought?
    $167 worth of food.
  • What do you think about the person who tagged you?
    She’s a great blogger taking my world by storm. I love the combo of social issues and fashion.
  • What’s for dinner?
    Mediterranean tuna & rice bake
  • rice bake
  • What’s your favourite decade, fashion wise?
    90′s through to now. (I know that’s almost 2 decades, but I’m a Libran and refuse to choose :p)
  • What are your must haves for summer?
    Sunblock, cocktails, big hats, shady trees, friends, and family.
    I have very white skin and live in NZ where there’s a big hole in the ozone layer. To top it off I’m on medication which increases sensitivity to the sun. :[
  • What would you love to be able to afford?
    A house, gourmet food, a trip all over Europe, a cleaner, to never have to work. What wouldn’t I love to be able to afford?!
  • What is your favourite piece of clothing from your wardrobe?
    My pants from Supre that fit me perfectly, are wide legged, and are long enough!
  • What is your dream job?
    Opinion giver.
  • What is your favourite magazine?
    With the amazing selections of blogs out there I hardly ever read magazines, and at $10-$20 a pop to get anything good in NZ there’s not much encouraging me to buy them. I do like Idealog though, it’s a NZ business mag for creatives and innovators.
  • Describe your personal style?
    I like to be comfortable. Wide leg pants, t shirts, blazers, hoodies, sneakers, shirt dresses with leggings. And it’s all in black or grey with pink accessories.
  • Which Beatle is your favourite?
    :S I honestly wouldn’t know one Beatle from the next!
  • What are you proud of?
    Not compromising my morals and maintaining the expectation that people should respect me.

And if they wish to participate I’m tagging:
Chickie Little
Jaka
Penelope
Fiend
Vixel

Things I Have an Unnatural Dislike For

Things I Have an Unnatural Dislike For
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  • & – I really wish people would just write and. I think & is pretty as a symbol and I use it a lot when writing with a pen, but as a substitute for a typed word I hate it. My business is called Cupcakes and Mace, not Cupcakes & Mace! :] (it actually makes me shudder to see it written that way.)
  • Boats – Nothing happened to make me so scared of them, but I am. I refuse to go on one, to the point that it excludes me from some family gatherings (well The Boy’s family gatherings, mine don’t seem to do boats as recreation).
  • Doors being left ajar – I am mildly OCD when it comes to certain things, and doors are one of those things. Wardrobe doors must always be shut in the room that I’m sleeping in. My toilet door should always be closed. And the door to our second bedroom clicks into place when you’ve closed it properly, if it doesn’t click I send The Boy back to do it again. (who’d want to live with me?!)
  • Pastel colours – Eurgh
  • Doing the dishes – I would rather scrub the toilet than clean the dishes. I tend to work things into a frenzy in my mind and I’ve done that with dishes. At first I just didn’t like doing them because they’re a chore, then I preferred to dry rather than wash, then I started to get pissed off when I had to do the dishes, now I actually feel upset when the prospect of doing the dishes is upon me. It fills me with an unnatural dread, I hate staying at peoples houses because the house guest is expected to do the dishes out of politeness. I’m so relieved when people have dishwashers.
    Am I crazy?
  • People calling me – I’m a writer, and I deal with people in other parts of the world most of my day, so I expect to communicate with written words – email, twitter, blog comments, facebook, chat, and texting, and not with a voice call. We actually get so few calls that when someone rings I get a bit freaked out and think someone has died.
  • Playing hide and seek and tiggy – My biggest fear is being chased. Any time I  feel like someone could be following me I get freaked out. If someone is running after me I prefer to run into a corner and turn around to face them because having someone running after me freaks me the fuck out.

What makes you shudder unnecessarily?

Have I Done Anything I Said I Would?

I’ve been out of my office job for just over two months now, so I thought it was time to review the list I made back in February.
A list which boldly stated what I’d do if I didn’t have a day job.

  • Create the already thought out design for Cupcakes and Mace
    I changed my blog theme in April in order to give myself more control, I also added a new header. There are still changes I’d like to make though.
  • Read books often
    I haven’t read a single book since I’ve finished work. I read so much online every. single. day. that I feel like I don’t have the time. I’m tempted to try Twilight to see if the book is any better than the movie.
  • Spend more time writing posts
    I do spend more time on most of my posts now, just because I can. I have a lot of half done posts and ideas as well, sometimes I’m too tired when it comes time to write something though and I end up writing filler (like this :p).
  • Name, tag, and upload all of my photos
    One day I’ll get to it.
  • Write to do lists
    I’m the kind of person that loves to plan, loves to prepare, but can’t quite get the same enthusiasm to perform the task.
    I bought a whiteboard and a corkboard, I write lists, I make piles, I plan, and plan, and plan. But I don’t actually finish anything on the list. I have been writing the lists though so I suppose that means this one is done.
  • Exercise
    Hahahahahahahahaha
  • Bake
    I’ve been putting my limited and lazy baking skills to practice. Today I made courgette and mushroom bread and it is delicious!
  • Write letters
    Email is just SO much easier (and free).
  • Find the best thrift stores and ask when new stock is put out
    I’ve hardly left the house during the day, let alone been going thrifting.
  • Plan outfits
    When you don’t leave the house there is no need to plan an outfit.
  • Get more sleep
    This. This! This is something I’ve gotten REAL good at. I sleep as long as I like and wake up refreshed and happy instead of bleary eyed and grumpy. I wake up and pull bake the curtain and get straight up.
    It’s the best feeling.
  • Listen to music lots
    I did for the first month, but I haven’t listened to as much this month. The iPod is all the way over there, and my laptop speakers are tinny as fuck.
  • Clear out my old clothes
    Must get on to this. It would allow me to use my desk.
  • Bask in the glory of having no boss
    There has been much basking in the Cupcake Factory.
  • Breathe more fresh air
    I get to enjoy every sunny day. I wake up when the sun is at its peak and wander into the toasty lounge. I open the bedroom window and front door wide and air the house. Its great.
    My skin is much nicer and not as dry now that I’m not stuck inside with aircon all day.
  • Make jewellery
    I get real enjoyment out of making pretty things so making jewellery has been one of the few things I’ve been doing.
  • Have fun with my “Wreck This Journal”
    Nope.
  • Attempt to alter clothes
    Not yet. Though I’m planning on shortening the straps on a dress tomorrow. My size 12 boobs don’t quite match up to my size 13 thighs.
  • Play my bass
    The only time either of the guitars get picked up is when one of our musically inclined friends comes over. I’m too impatient for music, if I’m not good after almost a year of weekly lessons I’m done.
  • Save money on food
    We definitely haven’t been eating out as often and I don’t buy lunches so money has certainly been saved.
  • Use recipes
    Not as much as I would like, but more than when I had a day job.
  • Tweet constantly
    I’ve got the tweeting bug. I don’t tweet constantly, but I’m there often, and I’m always reading.
  • Find the best photos on Flickr
    I often spend hours at a time finding perfect photos with CC licences for posts. (if you use Flickr you should give your photos a CC licence so they can be shared :])

So there you have it, I’m as lazy as ever, but I’m happy.

Screwing With Your Body

Living with a disease like crohns or colitis is hard to explain to many people. Symptoms are often not noticeable on the outside, there are no broken bones or rashes, and weight gain and loss is assumed to be over eating or anorexia.

I was 17 when I was diagnosed with indeterminate colitis, prior to that I had been getting progressively more sick and thin. I thought I was just a typically thin teenager who could eat what they wanted without putting on any weight. I didn’t know what a normal body felt like and so I assumed the grumbly gut was normal. The grumbly gut was around for about 1 and half years before I began spewing and spending so much time on the toilet I needed to go to a doctor and eventually get admitted to hospital.

Now I manage it pretty well with medication. Medication has side effects though. Side effects like a moon face, bad skin, and increased appetite.

And that’s how I went from stick thin teen… To thin young adult with a huge face… To average sized adult with bad skin.

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At least I have a chin again now.