2009 In Review

2009 in Review

A heads up: I started this post before giftmas and coming back to finish it found I had to change it. A lot. Prior to giftmas day, 2009 was the best year of my life. I met so many amazing people, had the best fun, started my own business, had fun blogging, and was very much in love. Unfortunately giftmas day saw my Grandads health take a nose dive, boxing day saw him pass away, and the 27th left me alone for the first time since I was 15 when Sol decided to leave me because I want to get married and he doesn’t. Yeah. Lame.

  1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
    Chose to rock a fringe, worked for myself, sold jewellery, travelled overseas with friends, got a tattoo. Yay, yay, and yay.
  2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
    My 101 in 1001 list started on the 1st of January and I’ve managed to tick quite a few things off it. Including the one that was most important to me at the start of the year – quitting my job.
    There will be many more for next year. Including sorting out my relationship/lack of relationship and learning to be strong and happy however the situation turns out.
  3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
    Benhi had beautiful little Abigail on the 26th of November
    Shonali had cuteness Charlie in August
  4. Did anyone close to you die?
    Yes :[ My very sick Grandad died on Boxing Day. I got to see him one last time on Christmas day and it was horrible to see him so frail and in pain.
  5. What countries did you visit?
    Australia (Gold Coast)
  6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
    A kitty, a thriving business that pays my bills, a DSLR camera.
  7. What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
    May – Trip to Oz
    June 3 – Last day of work at Standards
    November 26 – Abby is born
    December 26 – Grandad Dies
    December 27 – Sol leaves me
  8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
    Quitting my sucky job to work for myself.
  9. What was your biggest failure?
    Not working hard enough on my relationship, losing control of the situation, becoming financially dependant.
  10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
    Usual colitis symptoms, broken heart.
  11. What was the best thing you bought?
    Tattoos, trip to Oz, 3 pairs of prescription glasses.
  12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
    All of my new twitter friends – For being awesome and helping me have some fun
    My family – For looking after me and giving me space when I need it when it feels like my world is falling apart
    All the people that have tried to keep me distracted this past week
  13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
    Sol’s, all the people that want to be able to beat their kids legally, all the haters that think gay people and atheists don’t deserve the same rights as them.
  14. Where did most of your money go?
    Food. Always. May seem like a waste but it is one of my favourite things in the world.
  15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
    Leaving my job, seeing my family, holidaying.
  16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
    Anything by Sonata Arctica, or from Glee.
  17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
    • Happier or sadder?
    • Thinner or fatter?
      Potentially fatter, but definitely more comfortable with my body.
    • Richer or poorer?
      I have more money in my savings account, but less regular income.
  18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
    Cleaning, writing.
  19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
    Wasting time online unnecessarily.
  20. How will you be spending Christmas?
    I spent the morning at Mums opening presents before getting a call to say Grandad had taken a turn for the worst and wouldn’t be able to spend the day out of hospital after all.
    Followed by food.
    Followed by a trip to the hospital to see my Dad’s side of the family and Grandad looking frail and struggling for breath.
    Night time was spent getting drunk at my Aunties house across the road from Mum’s. Siblings, cousins, Mum, Step Dad, Aunty and Uncle did a good job of distracting me from Grandads expected passing by singing, dancing, and laughing.
    4.30am bought a phone call from Dad’s wife to say Grandad had passed.
  21. Did you fall in love in 2009?
    I fall in love/obsession with things all the time, so yes. Most recently it’s been Alan Rickman/Severus Snape, Emma Watson, Harry Potter (the stories not the boy), Glee, and Sonata Arctica. I stayed very much in love with Sol.
  22. What was your favourite TV programme?
    Glee, House, Gossip Girl, Gilmore Girls, True Blood, Dexter, Shortland Street. Don’t make me choose.
  23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
    I hate NZ Post. Does that count?
  24. What was the best book you read?
  25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
    Sonata Arctica. I heard them last year but listened to everything and became obsessed this year!
  26. What did you want and get?
    Some wholesale orders, awesome new friends, laser cutter, new job, tattoos.
  27. What did you want and not get?
    A proper commitment from Sol
  28. What was your favourite film of this year?
    Inglourious Basterds, though I watched Love Actually most.
  29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
    I turned 24 and celebrated with dinner and drinks at Japanese Restaurant Arashi. Then I got to meet Laura, Stacey, and Sarah from twitter at Hooch. I love those ladies!
  30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
    Getting engaged. Or even not being dumped, I would settle for that.
  31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
    “I don’t give a fuck how you expect me to dress”
    It involves a lot of t shirts, sneakers, tights, and skirts.
  32. What kept you sane?
  33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
    Severus Snape. lol.
  34. What political issue stirred you the most?
    Religion in government, homophobia in society. The usual stuff.
  35. Who did you miss?
    My mum. And I’ve missed Sol for a couple of days now.
  36. Who was the best new person you met?
    I can’t just choose one! Everyone from twitter I now see regularly. You have made the last few months amazing – Jo, Stacey, Laura, Amie, Lisa.
  37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009
    No matter how much love someone they can still be an absolute dickhead and abandon you right when you really need them.
    Or how about – you don’t have to work in a job you hate.
    Or maybe – good friends are worth their weight in gold.
  38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year
    “If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it”

If I haven’t mentioned you by name it’s not that I don’t love and appreciate you, it’s that I have a pretty terrible memory unless things are written down. If you’re reading this I love you too!

30 Things About My Invisible Illness You May Not Know

30 Things About My Invisible Illness You May Not Know

This week is National Invisible Chronic Illness Awareness Week in America. A fact I was made aware of through Natalie’s post of the same name. Go read it first, this one can wait. Natalie has some great things to say particularly about suffering from type 1 diabetes.

To get the word out about National Invisible Chronic Illness Awareness Week the organisers started a meme to help the “invisible” sufferers have a moan share more about what they’re going through.

  1. The illness I live with is: Indeterminate colitis. A lovely combo of ulcerative colitis and Crohn’s disease.
  2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: 2003 (January)
  3. But I had symptoms since: 2002 at least 6-12 months before being diagnosed.
  4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: Acknowledging that I’m sick, and that sometimes that means I’ll be in pain. And sometimes I’ll be debilitated, and that’s life now and I don’t have to pretend I’m ok when I’m not.

    Trying to remember to take my pills every day and get blood tests monthly.

    Never knowing whether I feel sick or tired because of the disease or because I have food poisoning, or ate a shitty diet that week. Whether I’m hungover or my gut is packing a sad because I had both alcohol and coke. And not knowing what it would be like to not be sick, am I really having a good week or is it just good compared to my bad weeks?

  5. Most people assume: That I have constant diarrhoea.
  6. The hardest part about mornings are: Going to bed before the sun rises.
  7. My favourite medical TV show is: House – cynicism, atheism, sarcasm, awesomism.
  8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: My computer? Medical wise…blood tests and colonoscopes.
  9. The hardest part about nights are: Remembering to take my pills.
  10. Each day I take 7 pills.
  11. Regarding alternative treatments I: Have tried a few things that didn’t work. Inflammatory bowel disease (IBD) is different for everyone, something that may work for one person might not work for another. I’m fairly skeptical about alternative treatments, especially in regards to chronic illness.
  12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: Invisible. I like to pretend there is nothing wrong with me.
  13. Regarding working and career: I would find it extremely hard to work in retail as I get a sore back after standing for an hour and I often need to take bathroom breaks on short notice. Bowel disease will not wait for scheduled break times.
  14. People would be surprised to know: That people died regularly from having an IBD as recent as 50 years ago. Despite the many negative side effects steroids have saved so many people from having to get their bowels removed.

    That I probably had been very very sick for almost a year before being diagnosed and only went to the doctor about it when it became really bad (and he had absolutely no clue as to what it could be). At 16 I was clueless and had absolutely no idea that it wasn’t normal to go to the toilet so often, to have diarrhoea, and to be in occasional pain.

  15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: Knowing that there is no known cause or cure and I’m more likely to get cancer than most people.
  16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: Go camping. But only because a portaloo was on site.
  17. The commercials about my illness: Are non existent. Most people have no idea what I’m talking about when I say ‘Crohn’s disease’, ‘ulcerative colitis’ or ‘indeterminate colitis’.
  18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: I was only 17 when I was diagnosed so I don’t really remember what life was like before colitis.
  19. It was really hard to have to give up: Caffeine and ice cream. I still have them occasionally and I really pay for it.
  20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: Blogging.
  21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: Get hyper on V (energy drink), stuff my face with popcorn, eat a tub of ice cream, and not feel sick afterwards.
  22. My illness has taught me: Finding a great doctor is a precious gift. Medicine is one of the greatest things in the world. Despite the long waits public health care is lifesaving and something every country should have. Getting blood tests isn’t scary. Taking pills isn’t hard (before this I couldn’t even swallow pain relief tablets, I had to learn quickly!). The Boy must have really really liked me (or was too lazy to do anything about it) to stick around when I got so sick at the very start of our relationship.
  23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is: I hate hate hate seeing the signs in food places, swimming pools, doctors waiting rooms etc that say you can’t help prepare, can’t swim, must tell reception etc, If you’ve had diarrhoea in the last week (or however long). I know it’s the easiest way to express the concern but IBD is not an infectious disease so those signs don’t apply to everyone who has diarrhoea. IBD is an inflammatory disease, in laymans terms my bowel has a hyper immune system and thinks all bacteria is bad and attacks everything and gets inflamed. I take inflammation medication and immunosuppressants to suppress my immune system.It’s also annoying when people link my choice to be pescetarian to the disease, and when people offer me gluten free food because I tried a gluten free diet 6 years ago for a few months.
  24. But I love it when people: Treat me like I’m normal, and understand that I’m managing ok with medication most of the time.
  25. My favourite motto or quote that gets me through tough times is: I just try to remember that about 50 years ago IBD was often a death sentence. We have made amazing progress with medication and hopefully it’ll get even better.
  26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them: Now you know, and now you can manage it so it should get easier from here. I haven’t met anyone that has just been diagnosed, but I would be more than happy to talk with them about it and offer any support I can. And I’d recommend they shop around till they find a doctor they really click with. Mine is fantastic and it has made the whole horrible experience much much easier!
  27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: The way it has integrated itself into life and is just a normality now.
  28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was: I was in the process of moving cities with The Boy (who I hadn’t been with very long) and we were staying at his house for a few days, half way to the new city, while preparing to move. I hadn’t yet been diagnosed but my symptoms got so bad that I couldn’t absorb my food, it was immediately coming out both ends. The Boys mum works as a nurse and could see the amount of pain I was in (what with me writing around on the floor clutching my gut and all) and that I needed to go to the hospital, she took me in the middle of the night, and waited with me for hours until I was seen. She waited with me while I was admitted, and looked after me while I was in the hospital by myself. The Boy had to go to our new city to look for somewhere for us to live so his mum was the only person I knew. And I didn’t really know her at all.
    It meant a lot to both me and my mum who couldn’t be there as she was a 5 hour drive away looking after my siblings.
  29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: I’m sick too dammit.
  30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: Happy that you cared enough.

Now go hug all your sick friends and let them know you admire them for getting on with life.


Copied directly from Definatalie.com because I feel exactly the same way and can’t put it better myself.

Disclaimer of sorts: This awareness week was started by a Christian ministry, and while I am an atheist I think it’s important to make people aware of chronic invisible illnesses. I also think it’s important to treat them with medical science, not just prayer – like in the case of the diabetic 11 year old who died because her Christian parents refused her medical treatment, preferring to pray for her healing rather than providing her treatment.


Hier Und Jetzt – 23 August 2009

Listening to: Faith No More; N.E.D.

Watched this week: Entourage Season 3 and 4, Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.

On my wishlist: More coasters for our new coffee table, we made one, and it took 20 minutes to cut so a redesign is in order. The Florentine pattern matches our glasses and cups. :D


I’m loving: Brand new babies (Congrats Shonali and Graham, he’s gorgeous!), indulging all the time, TV on the internet, emails from readers, a rush of sales after a quiet week, splurging on food.

Favourite photo: There are a lot of hot black cars on the shows I’ve been watching. I can’t drive, and prefer a wussy engine when I’m in a car, but I have an undying love for beautiful black cars.
low riding

I was tagged by Sarah Hannah of Death Wears Diamond Jewellery to answer a few little questions for y’all…

  • What is your current obsession?
    TV shows! I’m watching Entourage, True Blood, and Burn Notice, and patiently awaiting the return of Gossip Girl.
  • What is your horoscope and do you relate?
    I’m a Libran and I while have many of the “Libran traits” I don’t believe in that stuff anymore.
  • What are you wearing today?
    After I changing out of my fluro pink satin PJ bottoms and my WordCamp grey long sleeved tee (that I wore until after 5) I got into grey wide legged pants, a black unicorn t shirt, and a black Misery hoody.
  • What is the last thing you bought?
    $167 worth of food.
  • What do you think about the person who tagged you?
    She’s a great blogger taking my world by storm. I love the combo of social issues and fashion.
  • What’s for dinner?
    Mediterranean tuna & rice bake
  • rice bake
  • What’s your favourite decade, fashion wise?
    90’s through to now. (I know that’s almost 2 decades, but I’m a Libran and refuse to choose :p)
  • What are your must haves for summer?
    Sunblock, cocktails, big hats, shady trees, friends, and family.
    I have very white skin and live in NZ where there’s a big hole in the ozone layer. To top it off I’m on medication which increases sensitivity to the sun. :[
  • What would you love to be able to afford?
    A house, gourmet food, a trip all over Europe, a cleaner, to never have to work. What wouldn’t I love to be able to afford?!
  • What is your favourite piece of clothing from your wardrobe?
    My pants from Supre that fit me perfectly, are wide legged, and are long enough!
  • What is your dream job?
    Opinion giver.
  • What is your favourite magazine?
    With the amazing selections of blogs out there I hardly ever read magazines, and at $10-$20 a pop to get anything good in NZ there’s not much encouraging me to buy them. I do like Idealog though, it’s a NZ business mag for creatives and innovators.
  • Describe your personal style?
    I like to be comfortable. Wide leg pants, t shirts, blazers, hoodies, sneakers, shirt dresses with leggings. And it’s all in black or grey with pink accessories.
  • Which Beatle is your favourite?
    :S I honestly wouldn’t know one Beatle from the next!
  • What are you proud of?
    Not compromising my morals and maintaining the expectation that people should respect me.

And if they wish to participate I’m tagging:
Chickie Little

Respond and Rework

I was tagged by Miss Gem at Half Accidental.
These are the rules:

  1. Respond and rework: answer the questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own invention, add one more question of your own.
  2. Tag five other un-tagged people.

What is your current obsession?
Etsy and blogging and all things Internet related.

What are you wearing now?
Black shirt dress, black buttoned tights, sneakers, cupcake jewellery.

Do you nap a lot?
I used to, then I discovered blogging. Now I don’t have time for sleep.

Why is today special?
I finally admitted to myself that I’m going to have to hand in my resignation sooner rather than later if I want to keep my sanity.

What would you like to learn to do?
Market my products effectively.

What’s for dinner?
Sushi followed by a whole bag of Wonka Raspberry Twisters.

What was the last thing you bought?
A black hoodie with a couple of super cute monsters on it.

What are you listening to right now?
The TV is muted so just the sound of rain on the roof.

What is your favourite weather?
Crisp air, overcast with a hint of sun, and a light breeze.

What is on your bedside table?
Lamp, mini alarm clock, random assortment of jewellery, water bottle, nail file, candy, lint shaver, Barry (my plushy cell phone holder), stack of magazines and books, pills, pens, soft toys, glue stick.

What’s your style?
A mixture of comfort and off the rack tailored items. I love pairing t shirts and blazers with man style pants and sneakers. I always wear black on top and often on bottom too. Accessories are bright and cute.

What is your most challenging goal right now?
Earning enough money from blogging and selling jewellery to support myself.

If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where do you want it to be? If you could take an all expenses paid trip to one place where would it be?
Germany in a heartbeat.

Name the things you cannot live without.
Aside from the obvious? Family, friends, freedom, internet, sushi, sweets, creating.

What would you like to have in your hands right now?
The key to my future.

What would you like to get rid of?
My colitis.

What was the last book you read?
Last book I finished was The Lovely Bones.

If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
My mums house.

What languages can you speak?

What language(s) do you want to be able to speak?
German first and foremost, but Spanish, Japanese and Maori would be good too.

What do you want to be when you grow up?
A self employed creative type.

What is the worst job you’ve had?
Thankfully nothing too terrible, working as a checkout chick at a busy supermarket.

It seems like this meme has gone crazy in the last 24 hours, so apologies if you’ve already been tagged. I tag Chickie Little, Edith, simi, Amber, and Bella.

C-c-c-cupcakes (and workspace)

Today I have a couple of memes for you.

First off I was tagged by Gem to show y’all my blogging workspace.
I blog in a number of different places, it’s great having a laptop! The first two are my two desks at work. The messy (est) one is my main desk. It has most of my stuff on it. I try to keep blogging to lunchtimes only but there’s often a lot of downtime when I’m at this desk.
The second is a desk I’ve had since the start of this year. I have a secondment managing the web content at my work, so I’m usually busy when I’m at this desk
The bottom two are my home blogging spots. The green couch is in the lounge, I don’t find it very comfortable so I spend more time one the bed.
I spend a lot of awake time in my bed chillin with the teds, blogging and reading.

Blogging Workspace meme

I’m tagging Chickie Little, Amy Lorimer and Aimee Marie.

This letter meme was posted by Vixel and I got it on December 29th! It’s taken a while to post it!!

The rules:

You leave a comment on this post, and I’ll assign you a letter. You write about ten things you love that begin with your assigned letter, and post it at your place. When people comment on your list, you give them a letter, and the chain continues on and on.

  1. Cupcakes, candy, cocktails, cakes, cafes, cheese, crack/crab sushi, coconut, chocolate, champagne, cookies – All these food stuffs starting with c! Pretty much all of my favourite foods are on this list. It’s ‘crazy’ (lame joke).
  2. Communication – I love reading and writing a lot.
  3. Cats – If I wasn’t living in a stupid little unit the boy and I would have the most spoilt cat ever. I’m definitely a cat person.
  4. Creativity – I used to think that being creative was synonymous with being able to draw. And since I couldn’t draw I thought I wasn’t creative. It’s taken me all this time to realise that was SO wrong.
  5. Coheed and Cambria – I’m so glad I went to see them last year. They’re one of my favourite bands. Claudio has an amazing voice.
  6. Constantine – This movie is based on the Hell Blazer comics. I’m not into comics so much but I love all the movies based on comics and graphic novels. This one stars Keanu Reeves, he gets all the great supernatural action roles.
  7. Computers -In highschool all I knew I wanted to do was work with computers. I used to write out parts of books just because I liked typing, and I am totally in my element searching the web, blogging and managing the web content at work. Computers are awesome!
  8. Cinema – I love most kinds of entertainment but I especially love movies. My favourite genre is the graphic novel turned movie type.
  9. Comfort – It’s not often that you will find me dressed up, and I’ll almost never wear something uncomfortable. I just prefer to be able to move and relax. For the same reason I usually wear sneakers. Heels are just too hard to deal with.
  10. Camera – It’s just so fun to be able to document life. And when you get that great shot it can be pretty magical.

If you want to join in, comment and I’ll assign you a letter. If you’ve already done this one, link me so I can learn some more about you! xx