I Am Not A Tortured Soul

The ways creative people work, and get inspired, are as numerous as the creatives themselves. But as with everything there is a stereotype that fits: the tortured artist. One that both needs the pain of heartbreak and misunderstanding to create, and is heartbroken and misunderstood due to their creations. The vicious cycle seems to work for their art, but maybe not for their mental health.

I however am not a tortured artist. When I am tortured the creativity disappears. I need time, space, but most of all happiness to be creative. I need a fit mental state that is unburdened by destructive tendencies. When I feel bad I feel like crawling into a sheet fort and eating comfort food.

When I’m happy though, then I’m bursting with everything. I may be too busy to write, but I get hits of inspiration that leave me needing to use words. A new crush, amazing music, ridiculous times with friends when nothing is on your mind but the moment. Even the happiness of being completely comfortable and sated with my situation.

I need those days to create.

Those days are not an everyday occurrence anymore. But when they’re here they’re amazing.

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  1. I agree with the happiness and mental clarity to be able to create. I am the same. I do find that drawing on the negatives sometimes thought does help to unleash a deeper level of expressism. Also a good way to release them and get them out so that it is beneficial to mental health. Just dwelling on them and living a tortured life is far too time and energy consuming.

  2. I can totally identify with this! When I’m down, there’s often nothing I want to do more than to shut myself off from the world and write, but I never come up with anything worth sharing.

    I hope you have more and more of those great days :)

  3. It’s so true! Even just baking, though it’s like therapy for me at times and helps a ton, I find when I’m too upset, I can turn my favourite recipe into a pile of junk I wouldn’t feed to my worst enemy.
    Pretty soon those happy days will be far more frequent :)

  4. I’m not creative at all no matter what my mood is :-?

    Definitely take it when you feel happy stop and enjoy it you’re right unfortunately it doesn’t come very often xo

  5. I’m definitely more creative when I’m happy, but unfortunately I do feel depressed a LOT, so I sometimes feel like one of those stupid “tortured souls” :S. Sometimes when I’m feeling blue though I find myself composing music, or drawing. I can do this along as I’m alone. I don’t like being like this, but it’s just the way it is. The art I create always reflects the mood i was in when i created it, which is why some of my stuff is all pink and frilly, and some is gloomy and cynical….
    Rainy days make me feel very creative for some reason!
    It’s funny how differently creativity manifests itself in people :)

  6. I’m very much the same. Any sort of personal/mental devastation completely robs me of creative spark. And yet…. I know that if I sit down and do creative work, I’ll be happier. So maybe I should think about that more next time I get in a funk…

  7. My creativity comes when I least expect it, like if im happy I will tend to neglect my work a lil, but if im feeling shit the last thing I wana do is torture myself by trying to create something I like. But then out of the blue, when im really neutral and nothing, BLAM i get this surge of ideas and creativity.

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